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Thinking of... "Pour my love on You"

"We can choose to become bitter and upset at life, God and circumstances," Matt says. "Or, we can be obedient and say, 'God, this is not fun, and I don't know why I'm going through this, but I do know that you are in control.' I have to be desperately dependent upon God. That is where my strength comes from. If I don't have that, there is no reason for me to even be here."

:No Accident by Melinda Booze and Dara Fisk-Ekanger:

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Dealing with my life

Thinking of... "You are I AM"

Psalm 55

4 My heart is in anguish within me;
the terrors of death assail me.
5 Fear and trembling have beset me;
horror has overwhelmed me.
6 I said, "Oh, that I had the wings of a dove!
I would fly away and be at rest-
7 I would flee far away
and stay in the desert;
8 I would hurry to my place of shelter,
far from the tempest and storm."

It's as if God is slowly healing me of the deeper, unresolved, more painful problems and memories within me. Last 'chapter', He taught me how to pray. This chapter in my life, He's helping me deal with perfectionism.

I had been so legalistic without knowing it. I'd set high expectations of myself and others, and then felt like I never really lived up to them, and thus felt so unworthy and unloved. But I've just known about how it doesn't really matter.

His love is not shown by how much I have done to gain His approval; it is shown by how much He has done in my lie to change me from within.

A lot of people don't really know what's been happening to me, or what happened in the past in my life. It's filled with painful and disappointing memories, all that come rushing back with regret. My heart is broken, and it desperately needs healing.

And I turn towards the One who will accept me for who I am; the One who is always seeking in many ways to change me into a better person; the One who has shown His love for me so many times. I cannot do it on my own, nor have I found anyone or anything else like Him.

Psalm 55
22 Cast your cares on the LORD
and he will sustain you;
he will never let the righteous fall.

So I will look forward to this time of healing in my life.

How could I live without You
How would I survive
Without Your love, without Your touch
You're the one that heals me,
Cleanses my heart,
And sets me free

Now I come right before You
With my hands lifted up
And my heart humbly bowed
At Your work on the cross
As You hung there and died
You were paying the price
For my life, for my life

Chorus
For Your love
Is higher than the heavens
Is deeper than the seas
And all I want is You in my life

No one else can satisfy my soul
And make me feel this way
Only You Lord
Only You

Thinking of... "knocking on the doors of heaven"


When We Don't Measure Up

I haven't blogged for 3 weeks. I've been extremely bogged down by a History Assignment and waded through what seemed like a homework-heavy marshland. I've been sleeping late, and I am exhausted.

But God has pulled me through this week, the previous, and the one before that. He's amazing.
Like on my birthday, I was walking through the school quadrangle, and then I looked up at the rectangular pice of morning sky. It was a light blue, with a soft hazy cloud that had tinges of vermillion and peach. So beautiful. [And we found 3 crabs, several sea slugs, and mermaid fans later at Labrador Park that day.]
Then on the week before that, [edit this part].
And having to see little things filled with LOVE like these, while undergoing so much stress and pressure, just fills my eyes with tears.

I was able to relate so much to the article listed above just now, that I nearly cried. It highlights a lot of truths, like problems that I never saw before... and reading through it with an unsatisfied ache in my heart makes me feel sad [lack of better word to describe]. And with all those expectations of myself from myself in my life in mind, I saw how unrealistic they were, and how I could never live up to them.

I'll blog another day.