I love God! Suddenly I feel so refreshed, alive, breathing...
It's just like being to the mountain top. It's exhilarating, and the feeling is so overwhelming.
Today, on the bus, I was reading Romans. I felt so refreshed, so light and airy. PTL! PTL! PTL! PTL! PTL! PTL! PTL! PTL! PTL! PTL! PTL! PTL! PTL! PTL! PTL! PTL! PTL! PTL! PTL! PTL! PTL! PTL! PTL! PTL! Praise the Lord indeed!
"For sin shall not be your master, becauseyou are not under law, but under grace."
It is a phenomenal feeling to have.
Dear Lord, you are the greatest. Now, after having people praise me for who I am because of what You have done in my life, I have to pray for your protection, and the ability to overcome temptation which says, hey, you're great, why should God share it?
God, You are the creator of all things great and wonderful, and You are the One who has transformed my life. I confess my sins. I know by nature I am sinful, but I want to glorify You, not me, for we are dead to sin, but alive in Christ. I pray for the wisdom and ability to overcome temptation, that Your wonderful work may be seen in many others' lives. Oh Lord, be by my side.
I set my eyes on You, for the glory that is to come.
Amen.

I spent the whole of yesterday in mourning and gloom, despair and sadness.
I just knew that the whole of this Earth was corrupted, polluted with sin, and everywhere it seemed despair. I mean, look at this: The fifth Harry Potter book comes out and is an instant bestseller. Majority of peoples are listening to rock music, in cults, devil-worshipping, practising occultic stuff, too proud, worshipping Santa (satan in disguise), materialistic, [pauses]. I was "crying, crying for our generation" (from a song), really despaired.
So yesterday's YF retreat wasn't really fun for me at all. I was just moping around. And committing so many sins. I kept thinking, "Life isn't just about meeting and mating", attracting guys, beautifying yourself, showing off, and such. Like, so many stuff out there is projected towards glorifying yourself. Collecting Barbie dolls (the latest MyScene stuff) for the honour of it. Learning so much for the prestige of it. Engaging in intellectual debates to seem wise. Olay Skin Whitener, Clairol's Herbal Essence, to make yourself pretty. Playing and winning internet games to make your mark in this world. [sadly] Advertisements all calling out for your greed to buy their products.
Salvation just seemed impossible, so far away. So I felt numbed, so very cold. So many people I loved, I liked, all those poor souls, what were they to do without Christ?
And I just found out, the Vatican, Roman Catholicism, Catholicism, they were filled with heresy and blasphemous things.
Oops, I've sidetracked.
And then I came here. I read Kathryn Roach's article on how she felt like something was missing in her life, like maybe she'd 'missed the grade' and not been a good christian. It's not a matter of trying to be good and live by the 10 commandments, trying to be perfect just like Jesus. Hey, your salvation is already there for you. "I wasn't going to get salvation because of the good things I tried to do, but only as a free gift: the work of another. Jesus bluntly made the point that it's not the good fruit that makes the tree itself good but rather the good tree that makes the good fruit (Lk 7:43)...The Son of God died on the cross 2000 years ago to save me having to suffer the same fate in a few short years. And God rose him again three days later so that I could rise again too some day soon after being found completely blameless of all crimes against him. Now when God looks at me, he doesn't see me as someone "trying" to be "good" - instead, the king of the universe sees me as someone who is perfectly good, all the time. Even better, no one can take that away from me, and, I can't lose it because I never had to earn it. There's no benchmark I have to make to get it or keep it, I just get it, forever. Absolutely free! Suddenly "Grace" became one of the greatest words I'll ever hear that means more than I could ever hope to express."
And now, I suddenly understood why I had to believe in Christ resurrected. It's not a hardbinding pair of handcuffs that trap and imprison you; salvation comes with faith! Me, a little being with clothes filled with dirt and filth of my countless sins, couldn't try to clean myself of it, all by myself. I needed Jesus Christ, who had already cleansed us by His blood, free of our sins. I could stop cheating myself and think, "Oh, I just need to feel that trust that I have in God" NO! It's not the feeling. If you don't believe, your salvation just isn't there!
Mosquito bites have distracted me. [itch itch]
So yesterday I was thinking Christianity almost seemed like Legalism. Now I am thinking Christ has risen from the dead and saved me from my sins.
1 Chronicles 16:34 "O give thanks unto the LORD; for he is good; for his mercy endureth for ever."

I felt like crying after reading this. So many people all over the world are taking music and their pop idols as their life! Millions of teens, tweens, preteens, adolescents are in danger! My heart has a funny, heavy feeling to it. Just so sad...
The site itself contains interesting articles. Several must reads, one interesting one about environmental christians (especially at the end part) and even some freaky pictures. The world is indeed corrupted with sins and pollution.
2 people have shouted in the box. None have commented.
--sad--

An awesome thing happened today!
I had a piano lesson at 2.30 pm. My music lesson ended at 1 pm, supposedly, but it ended about 10 mins later. Due to the knowledge that I took around 45 mins to get home, plus my bus came every 15 mins, plus I still needed to eat lunch (!), I was rushing all the way to the bus stop, and on the way I prayed for God to send me a bus that will bring me quickly and safely home. I was with my friend. We sat down, and sure enough, a short time later my bus came along, and with airconditioning too! It travelled really quickly all the way back.

God works wonders!

Well, I'm feeling a bit grumpy... I just woke up from a period of exhaustion, after all that rushing...

And yesterday, that was another thing.

I woke up yesterday again. Normal day, had to go to school on my own, rush rush rush.. halfway, when I was downstairs, I realised I didn't bring my jacket. Well, the sky was shining, there were tame clouds in the sky, and yet I had this strange feeling that I NEEDED to bring my jacket. So off we went, rush rush rush again, my maid upstairs then down, then off to the bus interchange. Sure enough, on the journey aboard the bus, the wind started blowing icy gales, the sky turned a funny orange colour. It was raining! And the funny thing was, the window beside me was jammed from the start... it couldn't be opened!
Cool... breathtaking!

Maybe I should start a collection of God's wonders. Ya think?

God is awesome!
Today, when I woke up, I had this strange affirmation that there was no need to go to school, and so I didn't. But my friend called me and said there was. So I just woke up helter-skelter, changed, ate and ran off. On the bus, I got the opportunity to read the Bible study worksheet I got on Sunday. It was about the Holy Spirit's gifts and the marks of a spirit-filled life. BTW, our class spirit is in the cupboard. :P I just did the flipping there on the bus... and I got another peek about Him.
As I said... He's awesome, dude.

YIPPEE! I uploaded my site! Just the spotlight Javascript effect... it's not working! Now Wonky can be seen anywhere.... grrr. Besides that, it's ready for marking! Thank You God! Thank You Thank You Thank You! :)Here it is.

Now that I want to type something in, my mind refreshes itself, leaving a nice, white, hygienic, SARS free place.
My sister was singing a lovely song . It helped me through the day. Thank you, God, for sending a railing to guide me along.