There was a problem with the blogger server yesterday. My post got lost somewhere.
I haven't blogged for several days.

I've just learned that prayer is just like a conversation. A conversation usually involves two people. In such a matter, people have reactions. And sometimes, you just want to sit there and spend sometime in that person's presence, sometimes you find out all about that person, and sometimes you speak the truth, voicing any doubts or good points you see in that person.
I didn't think of God that way... probably why quiet time was so hard for me. But prayer consisting purely of petitions and requests, selfcentredness and such just doesn't fit the 'conversation' definition.
A good example of prayer can be found in Psalms. Most of the time, David and other psalmists praise God for who He is, Creator of all things, His Love endures forever, and my Shepherd. Sometimes they voice out their complaints against injustice, other times lamenting over their sorrows, most of it reactions to their situations.
An even better example is in the Lord's Prayer.

Wednesday was the start of CO Day Camp. Unlike last year's overnight stay. Pretty fun, except I've been hankering after quiet times, those times when I feel like practising isn't what I'm supposed to do (even though there's nothing to do for the rest of the time), instead looking for retreat.
Compared to last week, it was a vast difference. I used all the 'spare' time that I had online, playing Shockwave games, when I just knew I had to spend time with the Lord, just that at that time I didn't feel like it, nor did I know how to go about doing it. It sounded boring then. And so I didn't die to self.

But I don't think prayer is a 'do'. I think it's more of the act itself. Not like a task we have to do, but more of... [cannot explain what it is in my limited vocabulary]. Something else, yes.
(Refer to this article. I like www.boundless.org!)

I don't know what else to say. And this always happens in my conversations with another person. Though I find it's easy to talk like this with God. ++some other secret things as well.

Oh well. Good night. And thank YOU, whoever you are who's reading my blog.