Thinking of... nothing much.

I am in a self-pitying mode. I look at my words and my actions, and this thought floats around in my head, "I'm such an attention-seeker." With negative connotations. I think sometimes people are put off by my behaviour. There, I'm ranting again. "Misery loves company." And then pride suddenly creeps up.
I'm blogging because I know someone will read this. Not many interesting stories around. Blogspot is down for a moment.
I just... feel lonely. And I'm hoping someone will pick me up off my feet and say,"There there, I'll be here for you".
And I guess this is why I choose God over boyfriends.
For one thing, God knows all my thoughts.
He is there, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 52 weeks a year, 1000 years in a millenium. Forever there.
He's wise. He knows what's best for me.
He can do everything. [awe]
He is goood. [refer to praises below]
He accepts me as who I am. He won't back off even when I say, "Go away. I don't deserve your love. I'll probably stray away again."
He never throws temper tantrums and He's never egoistic.
In fact, if I ever get a boyfriend, he MUST be like Christ first. And that means he puts Christ in his life first.
Not me.
And God is also willing to lavish His love and blessings on us, if we follow Him.
I'm never nervous around God... in fact I can always be transparent in my thoughts [because He knows everything].
I don't need to flirt with God to get His attention... He will always be there for me.
You see Him all the time... not only the times you get on MSN messenger.
Only thing is, I can't hear Him all the time. But I know He's my Rock, my Shepherd, my Redeemer, my Saviour, and I am His sheep. [Baaa]
And I didn't find Him first... HE found me first.
[I love You God.]